I have a confession to make

Truth is...i think about Binghamton everyday
Like a lover I cant let go of
It kills me that as much as I want to, I cant go back
And I miss everything about it
While it may be beautiful here
I just cant seem to be able to call it home.
I'm not looking for comfort or we-miss-you-too's
and I AM experiencing God here.. everyday actually..
but I miss bing and all its imperfections








1hour later...skyping with 14 people = mad awkward on my side but soo awesome to see the bing kids.. thanks for those little doses of love God

One Race

Today I went to an oncampus church that was kinda awesome. The pastor spoke about how when we run the Christian Race we have to remember the prize, the reason why we run, the reward and how it surpasses all things. He used premed as an example hahaha how fitting. My struggle with control over my grades has often consumed alot of my life but coming here it seems to be very common. So common that I've already heard two sermons relevant to being a student and where God should be in our academic life. I guess its these times when I'm finally reassured of why God sent me here. So i will run this race and keep my eye on the amazing prize and I encourage those of you who still read this to do the same. Remember why it is you've chosen this life and who it is you are running for. If you cant remember then ask Him to remind you. God bless and fight the Good fight.

Is it worth it?

So I've been at Ithaca for a little over two weeks. I have to say its been a very interesting experience thus far. Though there are many nights I'm convinced that I belong here, there are other times when I'm overwhelmed with a sense of uncertainty. I make numerous calls a day to my family at home because I have no one else to call. I sit around in my air-conditioned single thinking "what can I look forward to tonight?". Then there are those days where I walk around and the scenery is absolutely beautiful- gothic buildings, bell tower, huge quads with people studying on the grass or playing frisbee. This campus is filled with the spirit of minds wanting to learn, to be involved, to make a difference and enjoy this wonderful opportunity and those yet to come. Sometimes I really think to myself, man this is what a university is supposed to be like but then I think of my beautiful Binghamton family and cant help but feel like Cornell is missing something. Perhaps a bit of love or maybe even genuineity? As soon as you enter the campus you can feel the liveliness and the huge sense of pride among the student body. Everyone wears their Cornell gear like its nothing: hoodies, sweatpants, tshirts, bags, you name it they wear it. I think it's going to take me awhile before I identify myself as a Cornell student but for now I can honestly say that though I've questioned my decision, I am certain that God had big plans for me here and that's something I have to learn to wholeheartedly accept. It's going to be a hard journey and it's already been super lonely, but if it's for Him it is worth it. Thank you Binghamton for teaching me so much. I couldn't have done it without you.

I love you guys.
Marion



I think im gonna start going by mare again since there wont be any confusion with meir's awesome name. I'm going back to my crazy academically intense high school days starting with the return of my nickname. -__-