Is it worth it?

So I've been at Ithaca for a little over two weeks. I have to say its been a very interesting experience thus far. Though there are many nights I'm convinced that I belong here, there are other times when I'm overwhelmed with a sense of uncertainty. I make numerous calls a day to my family at home because I have no one else to call. I sit around in my air-conditioned single thinking "what can I look forward to tonight?". Then there are those days where I walk around and the scenery is absolutely beautiful- gothic buildings, bell tower, huge quads with people studying on the grass or playing frisbee. This campus is filled with the spirit of minds wanting to learn, to be involved, to make a difference and enjoy this wonderful opportunity and those yet to come. Sometimes I really think to myself, man this is what a university is supposed to be like but then I think of my beautiful Binghamton family and cant help but feel like Cornell is missing something. Perhaps a bit of love or maybe even genuineity? As soon as you enter the campus you can feel the liveliness and the huge sense of pride among the student body. Everyone wears their Cornell gear like its nothing: hoodies, sweatpants, tshirts, bags, you name it they wear it. I think it's going to take me awhile before I identify myself as a Cornell student but for now I can honestly say that though I've questioned my decision, I am certain that God had big plans for me here and that's something I have to learn to wholeheartedly accept. It's going to be a hard journey and it's already been super lonely, but if it's for Him it is worth it. Thank you Binghamton for teaching me so much. I couldn't have done it without you.

I love you guys.
Marion



I think im gonna start going by mare again since there wont be any confusion with meir's awesome name. I'm going back to my crazy academically intense high school days starting with the return of my nickname. -__-